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Life's been really good. :)

I have moved. I'm not dead, just living somewhere.

Being a girl is so tough, let alone being just a human.

I despise weak human beings, and I am one of those. Often I think about many 'What If's, 'What Could Have Been's and 'What If I Did Not's. When such questions start to invade my mind, they start flooding my mind like an endless stream of running water coming from the tap, and sometimes I get so sick pondering over the same things many a time. I was stronger, I thought I was strong. But it seems like when catastrophes hit, I surrender too easily. My mind can't take what I thought I could. I am weak, but I'm too stubborn to concede defeat. Many times I took it in my stride and stuck it up my ass with a fake smile but by the end of the day, all the anger that I've kept inside me could have accumulated and exceeded what I could contain, causing my blood vessels to burst and spray.

It's not easy. On such days I wish I could be a happier person, I wish I could look at things in a positive light, I wish I didn't have to shout and scream my lungs out and make matters worse. Many times I've reminded myself the importance of self-control and tolerance. But in the end I break my own rules and I commit them over and over again. Sometimes I am overwhelmed with fury so intense, I am afraid I may just grab a sharp blade and stab myself just so that I could stop the emotional pain from drowning me inside.

But I'm glad there were people who truly understood how it felt. At least I know I'm not alone. And I do not want to take my life for granted. I know there are many people out there who have suffered a hell lot more than what most of us had - there are always people who deserve much more sympathies than we do, and we shouldn't complain about how depressing our lives are, because we know ours are not the worst.

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

Hi, I guess it's been a decade since I've updated this blog. I wonder if anyone's still reading this? Life's been fine, I'm fine, but definitely certain things have changed over these few months. Although I've moved away from this dead place and found a new life, but sometimes coming back here brings me really nostalgic memories(well, at least I think so). The O levels are coming to an end for me(I do know many have already rejoiced since theirs have ended earlier), and I am also aware that most of you were probably so overwhelmed with happiness, you probably set your textbooks on flames already. It's still amazing to know that I've gone through four years in Crescent, really, all of a sudden time seems to have flown by real quickly, or perhaps too quickly... Though I would say I'm happy to be finally leaving, it's a little too hard for me to part with the great friends I've made in Crescent over these four fruitful and wonderful years. I know we'll still keep in touch but things would probably be different by then. Nevertheless, it has been a blessing and joy to be able to meet such great people - some of them have been like angels to me, always rendering me help in times of need, and some of them have been real good mates, for all the fun and laughter we've shared.

I'll definitely miss you guys.

爱永远都是难题　
失去分寸太容易　
谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼
有时候忘了珍惜　
伤害来的太无意　
有时爱太急　需要空间呼吸
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻　
然后不断自责　
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻　
谁不会舍不得　
现在我给的或许并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱　最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过　遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱　连未来也没有我　
爱着你　仍是我的执着

Something about me has changed, I think.

Who was the last person that...

1. Made you smile: Me and my HYD cast.
2. Saw you cry: No-one.
3. Went to the movies with you: LL.
4. Talked to you on the phone last: My dad.

1. Flowers or ice cream: Definitely ice cream.
2. Gray or black: Black.
3. Color or black and white photos: Black and white.
4. Lust or love: I just need love from my friends and family.
5. Sunrise or sunset: Sunrise.
6. Staying up late or waking up early: Staying up late.

Answer honestly..

1. Do you like anyone now: I like everyone.
2. Smoke: I quit the thought after looking at my bio text.
3. Steal: Used to.
4. Do you believe in love at first sight: No.

1. Sun or moon: Moon.
2. Tea or coffee: Coffee.
3. Left or right: Right.
4. 10 acquaintances or having 2 best friends: 2 best friends.
5. Sunny or rainy: Rainy.
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream: Chocolate ice cream.

About you..

1. What time is it: 9:44pm.
2. Name: Angela.
3. What do you want right this second: Nothing?
4. How many kids do you want: I'll think carefully about how many I want to adopt.
5. Do you want to get married: No.
6. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: Cut it.
7. Do you cook: I failed my home econs practical.

In the last week have you...

1. Bought something: Yes.
2. Sang: Yes.
3. Been hugged: No.
4. Felt stupid: Fuck yes.
5. Gotten your hair cut: No.
6. Cried: No.
7. Said I love you: I don't misuse these words anymore, so no.

I remember Hole gave me a packet of fortune cookies the other day, and all the fortune cookies I opened gave me notes of encouragement. Today, when I looked into the paper bag again, I realize that I have not yet opened the last one.

"You will received a letter or a present from someone you love soon."

This is something new. The message brought a smile to my face, however. Yet it was not due to the meaning it held, but to the redundant letter 'd' they had added to the word 'receive'.